Facing the Final Days – Blog 61

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Whilst the news is not entirely unexpected, I must admit today (Tuesday) has been heart breaking. Up until now we have been watching my Dad fight his battle with Cancer. We are now watching him die.

Pain is just a regular occurrence now, though thankfully the Palliative Team were due to visit Dad and offer their assistance. However, it was clear within seconds that the news was not good. We are now facing just days. It’s highly likely, if not a certainty, that my Dad will be gone before the week is out, if not sooner. We have been advised to prepare ourselves and make any necessary arrangements.

All current painkillers have ceased with immediate effect. Instead they have been replaced with Morphine injections to help Dad remain as pain free as possible until he passes. The ceasing of all tablets also included the sodium pills which have been keeping him out of hospital. Basically, the sodium levels will fall, but Dad will be gone before this becomes an issue.

No amount of awareness or kind words can truly ever prepare you for the inevitable. My Dad is one of life’s good guys. A wonderful husband, dad, grandfather, brother, uncle, friend and a beautifully upbeat person.

I can’t really express in words how gutted we feel that Dad will soon be gone. Clearly, I am thankful for the time we have been given and in many ways we have been extremely lucky with the huge amount of time we have been blessed with, in order to create memories.

No matter how gutted we feel, the silver lining is that the Morphine is intended to make the next few days as easy as possible for Dad. In addition, he is at home, in his castle, with his loved ones around him. He is however a shadow of his former self and simply no longer has the energy left to fight. In some respects, I can’t fault him. He has fought proudly with his head held high for far longer than we could ever have hoped for. My Dad an amazing man.

These next few days will be tough, horribly tough. Ultimately though we are proud of him and love him very much.

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2 thoughts on “Facing the Final Days – Blog 61

  1. Let the love you all feel surround you as a blanket and help to give you the strength and support you all need right now.
    We know it is so hard to lose a loved one but ”tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
    Who could not love Robert? He will be missed but we shall remember him laughing at his own jokes and the pride he felt for his loved ones.
    And for you, his family, take pride in how you have all coped and been there for him every step of the way. You could have done nothing more.
    Lastly thank you for keeping us all informed every step of the way.
    Give him our love.

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  2. We are holding you all in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. Your Dad is truly one of life’s good guys, and has fought this battle with so much passion and bravery. We send you all our love and sincere compassion, Melissa & Richard xxx

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